My Own Grave!!

 

 

And I cried by own grave
My desires died before i could crave
From tyranny myself i couldnt save
my way i didnt know how to pave

I let myself break and scatter
no one cared to ask the matter
I hid it by my giggling & chatter
but i cried and let myself shatter

i had no friend to hold my hand
no one to help me stand
Life was like a punishment, and
and i felt lost on a strange land

Call me Disabled or what you want
Of People like me the world is scant
You may stop by and pass a taunt
you may roam about and flaunt

I have my unconquearbale spirit
you are no comparison to me “mind it”
I am alone but my faith in my Lord is Lit
you can suppress it not even if you curse me or hit.

I stand against storms strong to the world indeed
but i kneel before my Allah alone and plead
U seek not nor even know at all what i need
To the pain you have caused i pay no heed

See me laugh those who stab me
you wont catch me weak, see me tease
as my Faith nothing Supercedes (Alhamdulillah)
My pain with my life will only cease

And then it will be my Beloved* and me
with jealousy you will eye me
I will stand before Him and you will see
All pain will vanish to Glee

I will have the promised Gaze – (InshaAllah)
its since ages been my craze – (Alhamdulillah)
May we wake up Before gone are our days
In the end my beloved Allah i praise – Subhaan Allah

*Beloved is referred to Allah SWT